Right now, it feels like nothing is going right. I need a space to pour out all these bottled emotions. 

Waking up today way earlier than I usually do, I have this heavy feeling or more of a longing. I am in no mood to write in my wattpad story and so I am stuck with this. 

This Thursday that passed, I finished Graffiti Moon. It was so perfect, all the hopes of finding that one person made to spend forever with you. The words sink through your soul, the core of who we are. True and honest, importantly it was romantic in the most unimaginable way. And now I long for my own “Shadow”, the one who desperately calls for me through the murals scattered all over town. 

All those books I devoured page after page, the characters I watch fall in love with each other, I was quietly weeping with them throughout their heartbreaks. Every now and then I wonder if my life can be just like theirs, simple and predictable. If only my destiny can be written by me. 

Earphones that shut out the whole world. Today I will lie in bed, separating myself from everything. I will be nothing but in all that loneliness, I will feel everything. Emotions I never knew I had, pain I’ve always kept and that longing I’ve pushed aside for so long. Today I won’t hold back, for once I will let go completely and before this day ends, the person I am in front of people will again resurface. 

The songs I hear, the lyrics bring me to somewhere that I will never belong. That perfection I try so much to be in, it will always be out of my league. When will someone whisper to me all those words I want to hear, whisk me away from all these earthly emotions. 

Too bad my life is not written like novels are, happy endings in the end. It’s sad that those songs are meant to be heard by me but they will never be for me. By the end of today, in reality, I will just be the girl who secretly longs for impossible things. 

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To the most beautiful Koala, the most important person in my life right now, the love of my life, my one true love, my destiny…


So, I have really not much to say ‘cause I talk to you every day and ‘cause I tell you almost everything whenever I get the chance or whenever I feel like it. Anyway, I hope your 2013 ended the way you wanted it to and I really hope you had a blast this 2013!

Hmmm. Thank you for being patient, I know I am as hard to be with and to keep up with compared to anyone else. Thank you for always assuring me…(though I always find it hard to believe, it’s not you, it’s me) and for showing how much you love me (though it always seem like it’s never enough, for the record, it is ENOUGH…more than enough). Thank you for always being there to support me, to make me laugh whenever I’m sad and thank you for filling up that empty space, for never allowing me to be lonely. Basically, thank you for making my life perfect. I never knew that my life could turn into a fairytale, it’s like a dream that only I have, it’s very special cause it’s mine. My life since I met you has been one hell of an experience but I assure you it’s something worth remembering. I know I’ve been saying that I changed a lot (for you) but truth to be told, I kind of like the way I am now, though vulnerable, at least I know that I am capable of feeling pain. Being hurt is part of living and so is feeling any kind of emotion, and somehow I never realized that it’s what’s missing in my life until you came. It’s very cheesy but you brought colours into my life.

Every moment I spend with you is very memorable. The happiness it brings me is unexplainable. I know sometimes I don’t show emotion but I’m just really like that, I feel like people will take advantage of my feelings or I will seem weak if I do show my emotions.

Thank you for exerting your best efforts to make me happy and to make me feel special. Thank you for choosing to love me.

I’m sorry for all the fights, arguments and petty issues, I know I caused a lot of them. I’m sorry for breaking your heart, for leaving numerous times and for upsetting you. I’m sorry that I usually don’t understand you and that for some time I was not able to make you feel free to do what you want. I really am trying to adjust to your lifestyle and to be more patient and understanding. I am hoping to be worthy of you one way or another this coming year.

I like everything about you. The sweet and long messages always make me smile. I like your smile, I remember describing it better than Mona Lisa’s. I like it when we talk, random and sometimes deep stuffs. I like being real with you, sharing stories that will let you get to know me. I like it when you massage my shoulders, face and hands. I like it when you kiss me and when you hold my hand, also when you hug me very tight. It’s nice whenever you get clingy and sweet to me, surprising but really heart-melting(no such term). When you share story, I feel like I connect to you in someway that no else can and it’s very fulfilling for me. Also, your CORNY jokes, just cause it’s new year that’s why I admitted it to you (bring it up again and I’ll deny it). And whenever I get the chance to tease you, it’s fun! Oh what joy! I like it when you sing, play any instrument for me and when you dedicate your original songs for me.

Out of everything that happened this 2013, meeting you, being with you and falling in love with you is the best thing that ever happened. I feel so blessed to have you, so lucky to still have you despite everything that’s happened between us. I love you so much and I miss you. I think about you every day and I can’t wait for the time to actually be with you for the rest of my life, for the whole world to see.

No words can ever amount to what I feel for you. I know I may not be the most deserving of you but I promise to work my ways into becoming the best for you(hopefully), even if it takes all my life to prove myself.

I love you baby. :* Thank you for being in my life, and for making it worth living. You showed me a whole new world in my mediocre life.

Always and Forever yours,


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Cheers to the end of 2013, it has been awesome, drink up to the upcoming 2014, will you be one hell of a year!

Hi Everyone! I don’t even know if anyone still uses tumblr but, oh well. Happy New Year!!! Yeah, hoping that 2014 is going to be awesome.

Before I officially say goodbye to 2013, I shall recount or reminisce the events that happened that made my year one worth remembering.

  1. I reunited with my friend, Alena.
  2. I won an essay contest.
  3. I got my heartbroken…
  4. My heart was slowly being healed…
  5. I learned to trust people (Yeah, like 25% more than I did before)
  6. I got a new phone!!! WOOO.
  7. I discovered the wonderfulness of EBOOK.
  8. I reconnected with GOD. Victory Church.
  9. I got closer to my friend, Kish.
  10. I learned to stand on my own, well, somehow.
  11. I gained new twin friends… (This is special cause, I AM OBSESSED WITH TWINS)
  12. I received many gifts during my birthday!
  13. We got a portable wi-fi. (Yes. 18 years I’ve been internet deprived most of the time, this year it finally changed)
  14. I got in PNB! Oh yeah…OJT being taken care of.
  15. I survived my thesis…(barely but the grade is still average)
  16. I FELL IN LOVE… ♥♥♥

Well, that’s about the highlight of my 2013. Fingers crossed for a new wonderful 2014! 

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